dont DIE in pain..!DIE in LoVE!!♥♥

when will it stop???!!!??...

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 22:05:39 GMT

Shes stuck behinde his beautiful eyes,his ever loveing smile.Night by night day by day she loves him more each day.He cheats and lies,she stays and cries how much more can she take?She never would have thought his love for her was fake.Slowly but surely his secret life she uncovers.He secretly FUCKED to girls under the covers.He lies and say his love for her has not been tanted,that he has not touched ,looked ,kissed another girl.Boy did her life take a twirl!Her life,love filled with happiness,is now completely filled with darkness.He comes crawling back on his hands and knees,begging her to take him back please!She looks into his beautiful eyes as a tear rolls down her cheak.Her heart beats,then skips a beat with every deep breath she takes.Getting ready and prepared to say,that her love for him will never stay!

tell me what you think,i just wrote it.
xoxo
nicole

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 01:42:33 GMT

hum,high school can really change people.like i know thisgirl name masha she was the sweetest thing!i could tell her anything i could trust her with anything.she was so humble and the farthest thing from big headed!it was me her ali and nieshe,the best of buds!but since she started highschool shes become to cool for us!i wish we could go back to the way things use to be.were there was this sweet little innocent masha.but now theres this evil cocky girl.but,i know her on the inside ,shes nothing like this.she pretends to be a "MEAN GIRL" to impress some friends.now you have lost so many close friends do to your change.I just want the old masha back the one i loved so!!

the best friends you could know

-ali,lonnie,cecil,niko,patrick,anna,tomora,skip,chris b.,nieshe

i love you guys to death!

masha ilove you!!

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 17:34:16 GMT

im sittin herr in class wit my nigga ryan, we just chillen like a villann ya know im listenin 2 that new joint "my black T" that song is the shit. Ryan just said he would sux anyones dick u want come get it lol stright or not niko cum get it nigga . Anyways gotta bounce im out this bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHISHHKABOB

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 06:27:59 GMT

I LOVE ANNA!!!!

AND THAT'S THE SHITZNIT!

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 21:08:31 GMT

hello everyone!
um,dont know whats going on but havent seen my bestfriend in a long long time.thinks she's mad at me?but who knows cause she neveer picks up her phone when i call her.but i still love her,and miss her alot!

last night whent to the galleria!
we were chased by security guards`and got kicked out the movies it was soo funny!had alot of fun.but some sad moments.almost lost someone,but relized we had something to good to give up.and i overreact to some things!

you always wish your relationship will be the perfect one.but no relations are.everyone fights,but in the end you relize how much that person means to you,and the dumbest fight means nothing.
love
nikki

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 12:26:49 GMT

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

i need you baby!!!!

nikki

ehh what to do??..>.??

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 21:28:25 GMT

can old love be new love?

can the old pain go away?

is it you i want, you i need?

you make me happy when im with you.you make all my pain go away.you are my best friend i love you soo!

jamal + nicole = bestfriends forever
ali + nicole = bestfriends forever
cecil + nicole = new love??

xoxo
nikki

for once i see the reel you!!

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 04:21:04 GMT

for once i see you and not this fake act you put on!!i have to say i like this side of you!!

You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away

new begining,new start,will it be the same?Or different?

xoxo

nikki

SO INTO YOU.....

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 19:06:16 GMT

ADD JAMAL'S NEW LIVEJOURNAL,FOR THE LAST TIME!!!
gangsta_nygga

I can’t really explain it
I’m so into you now
I wanna be more than a friend to you now
When they ask, I mention my babygirl in the interviews now
And I don’t bring the problems from the 90s and the 2 thou
Theres no reason to have a friend or two now
Cuz the kids ready to tell you how he feel and a few vows
Maybe I speak in general now
But girl, imma do whatever just to keep a grin on u now
Where I roll, they wear bikinis in the winter too now
What you think about tan lines on the skin of you now?
Why wouldn’t I wanna spend a few thou
On fifth ave, shopping sprees and them dinners to chow
I aint concerned with other men with you now
As long as when I slide up in you, you growl
And any dude with you, he better be a king to you now
And I aint jealous, it’s the principle now
I’m so into you

I really like what you’ve done to me
I can’t really explain it
I’m so into you
I really like what you’ve done to me
I can’t really explain it
I’m so into you

nikki

huummmm!!!

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 03:01:28 GMT

venting moment!!

worst at love ,the worst at being loved!you never had someone who actually made you feel no pain in life.you loved everytime you were together,and when you were apart you dreaded it so much!i never felt love until you were in mylife messed up as usauall and hurt you.im sorry im just a complete idiotwhen it comes to love
nicole

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 20:01:35 GMT

heyhey
add jamal's live journal
madd_hoops1

NEVER LONELY
I’ll never be lonely with you.
You’ve made all my dreams come true.
You make me smile, you dry my tears.
You make me feel safe, you take away my fears.
I want to thank you for finding me.
For loving and caring and for helping me see.
All the beautiful things found in life.
Like the dream of one day being your wife.
Hours feel like seconds.
A year feels like a day.
Because when I’m with you.
Minutes just fly away.
You’ve turned my nightmares into dreams.
My life is more exciting than it used to seem.
We kiss through sunshine, we kiss through rain.
The sensation of our love is almost like pain.
Pain of happiness.
Pain of love.
Pain sent from angels,
From heaven above.
You cuddle me when I cry.
You tell me you’d do anything for me… even die.
Well I want you to know that I would do the same.
Anything to thank you for taking my pain.

I believe with my whole heart,
Our love is true.
So I guess what I’m trying to say is,
I really do love you.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 23:35:31 GMT

Two teardrops were floatin down a river. One tear drop said to the other, "I'm the tear drop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" The other said "I'm the tear drop of a man who regrets letting a girl go"

the worst thing in the world is to love somone,and watch them love someone else!!

nicole

BLAH

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 04:07:00 GMT

ALI's party was so fun!!!

MISSING SOMEONE!DONT KNOW WHY WERE IN A FIGHT AGAIN?
I HATE IT WHEN WE FIGHT!!Y cant we be perfect and not fight??
-nicole

ANGRY!!!....yet sad

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 04:41:46 GMT

TALKING TO ANNA.SHE IS THE BEST...I LOVE THIS GIRL!!!!

MISSING MY BESTFRIEND,WE FIGHT WAY TO MUCH.

i need a shoulder to cry on.

Y DO I LET YOU CHANGE ME??you affect my whole day,my whole life,my friendship woth others.i cant stand it when we fight!!

SOOOOO,IF AFFENDED ANYONE LATELY,IM REALLY SORRY.I NEVER MEANT TO.I CANT HELP IT.YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.IM SORRY AND I LOVVE YOU!!!
nicole

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 01:06:56 GMT

Today was an awesome day!

My best friend came back today!!!!It was the best day i love him so much!!!

WE HAD A GREAT DAY A ALI'S

jamal,patrick,masha,chloe,were all over alis and we all got raped a few times!,lol

YEA IT WAS THE BEST DAY!IM SO HAPPY!!

i love you anna!!with everything in me!!

More poems by,JAMAL

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 03:07:34 GMT

You tell her you lover her but don't
really mean it.
Mess around with other females and
bring home unwanted diseases.
She cries and cries her emotions are
at a total low.
She tries to leave you, but her heart
is saying, "NO!"
Now with AIDS, sad, 2 kids, dumb
but in love.
You continuing to do her wrong, and
again her heart is crushed.
She's not takin the pain this time, not
again.
She calls her thugged out bro. and his
crazy a$$ friends!
The next day in tears, cryin her heart
out, but happy.
Because the person on T.V. dead is her
baby's daddy!

The Feel

Love can be expressed through
many feelings and emotions.
This feel cannot be forced, or
gained with trick potions.
Love can be the greatest feeling
in the world.
Love can also be the destruction
of your world.
Love has a number of positive
and negative effects.
Relationship, depression,
foolishness or even a "PECK!"
I don't know why this feeling is
like this w/ me.
But i know this is a feeling that
overpower me!!!!!!!!!!

Good & Bad
Beautiful like flowers or a shot from
a NBA star.
The love i have for you is by highest
the far.

Pretty, outstanding, loving, and great
is what you are to me.
Being with you forever is my destiny,
that i'm destined to achieve.

Not understanding the magnitude of
the feel of my emotions.
So y do i even tell?
You don't feel the same way, you don't
care, or love me, so go to hell!!

I know my words sound harsh, but
this is the way i feel.
I wasn't meant to be your Jack an
you were meant to be Jill!
Bonnie and Clyde, Ride or Die!

I wrote this poem thinking of
happiness, and a good feeling,
knowing there will not an "us!"

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:25:51 GMT

A Trouble Nigga (pt. 1)

Grew up with no father
in the projects with a 3
job working mother.
You the oldest had to
help support your baby
sisters and brothers.

No positive guidance, lil'
money, and in deep debt.
You find selling drugs and
robbing a way out but with
a bad rep.!

On the corner w/ a block of
"SNOW" a pocket full of
money, and a 9 on yo waist.
All for the love of your family,
you cont. your paper chase.

Knowing the consequences of
the lifestyles you live.
Money, good livin, but a result
of you being killed.

Now, at the top of yo game you're
livin what you think is the good
life.
Same day you were shot and
stabbedby some crazy niggas gun
and knife!

For a good and bad cause you
died for what you believe you
had to do.
But now your family is in tears,
feeling abandoned because
they are living without you.....

WRITTEN BY:JAMAL
(tell me what you think)

sooooo...bored

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 23:16:22 GMT

Learning a valueable lesson through all my bordem.You cant trust none of your friends.There were 3 people i trusted the most.and one of them is acting really retarted so i think im going to cut it off with her.Atleast i can still have Masha and Jamal.i cant lose you too.So dont screw me over.I feel like im always a better friend to the other person.Anyone they had a problem with i had a problem with.anyone they werent friends with,i wasnt friends with.Im not letting anyone walk all over me anymore.So w/e

-nicole

i love nieshe!!!!

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 03:31:30 GMT

LAST NIGHT

i whent throuh the most emotional time of my life!i mean it was crazy.im in love and its not lust.the person loved me back too,but then being me.i messed it all up.i hope i can get your love back.buts its all good as long as im in your life!

TODAY

im feeling better,its still not the same.i guess i have to be patient.

i still feel lost,not knowing who i am,hopefully i will soon.

i dont know what hes after,
but hes so beautiful,
such a beautiful disaster,
and if i could hold on,
through the tears and the laughter,
would it be beautiful?
or just a beautiful disaster?

-nicole

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 06:24:01 GMT

todsy i lost the one person who loved me.i dont know what to think or feel.he was the one person in my life who really and truely loved me.he loved me more then my on mom.i loved him more then anything in world.i dont know what to do.im so hurt,i lied to you when you trusted me.i would have never done it ententually.everytime i thin of you i cry,which is all the time since this has happened.i did something bad and i wont stop until were back together.im so stupid,there is no point or me to live anymore.noone else loves me like you did.i guess its the end of me.because there is no me without you ike i said.I LOVE YOU!!!

XOXO
NICOLE

LOST

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 06:22:36 GMT

IM FEELING REALLY CONFUSED RIGHT NOW ABOUT EVERYTHING.I DONT KNOW WHO TO TRUST,ALL PEOPLE DO NOW IS LIE.I FEEL SO ALONE.I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN IT.IVE LOST SO MANY IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.I DONT FEEL THE SAME WITHOUT THEM.IM NEVER HAPPY,IM ALWAYS SAD.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO?WHO CAN I TRUST?
EVERY PERSON I TRUST,HURTS ME.EXCEPT OR TWO PEOPLE.I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.IM NOT GONNA PRETEND TO BE HAPPY FOR ANYONE ANYMORE.I HATE LIVEING THIS LIE.I HATE IT.I WANT IT TO END.

YOU LET THEM GET TO YOU.YOU CHOSE THEM OVER ME.I WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE THAT TO YOU.YOU MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME.I CANT STAND NOT HAVEING YOU IN MY LIFE.ITS THIS HOLE IN MY HEART.AND IT WANT FEEL UNTILE YOUR BACK.IVE LOST ALL TRUST IN ANYONE BECAUSE OF YOU.I HATE YOU,BUT LOVE YOU.W/E I JUST WANT THIS TO END.
-NICOLE

WEIRD DAY AT ALIS

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 22:29:34 GMT

IM FALLING FOR YOU MORE AND MORE EACHDAY.I WANT YOU SO BAD.IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.I FOUND A RESON FOR ME TO CHANGE WHO I USE O BE.AND THAT REASON IS YOU.I GAVE UP MY PAST FOR YOU.HE IS NO LONGER IN MY LIFE,JUST YOU.AND THATS HOW I WANT IT.YOUR ALL I NEED,ALL I WANT!COME TO ME.PLEASE!YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.THERE IS NO ONE LIKE YOU.I CANT PICTURE MY LIFE WITH OUT YOU.WITH OUT YOU THERE IS NO ME.COME TAKE ME INTO YOUR ARMS.ILOVE THE WAY YOU HUG,TOUCH,KISS ME.NEVER LEAVE ME,PLEASE!!!!!I LOVE YOU<33
-NICOLE

WAITING FOR YOU............

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 19:37:22 GMT

WAITING FOR YOU TO RETURN.IM SOOOOO HORNY.HURRY HURRY!I NEED YOU HEAR!!!!!!I LOVE YOU

CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU
CANT WAIT TO FEEL YOU
CANT WAIT TO GET INSIDE YOU
I LOVE YOU!!
-NICOLE

can you say insane???

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 03:25:29 GMT

WOW,LATELY HAS BEEN INSANE!!!I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT.ITS LIKE IM IN A MOVIE,ITS SO UN REAL TO ME.IM RELIZEING ALL THE TRUE FRIENDS I REALLY HAVE.I HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS,BUT NOT TRUE FRIENDS.THESE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN THROUGH EVERYTHING WITH ME,AND I CANT PICTURE BEING WITHOUT THEM.THEY GUID ME,STAND RIGHT BY MYSIDE THROUGH ANYTHING.

ALI-YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.MY JELLO BABY,YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE WHEN EVER I NEED YOU,I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU THROUGH ANYTHING!

JAMAL-MY GOD,WORDS CANT DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU.I LOVE YOU MORE THEN LIFE ITS SELF.YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.YOU ARE BESTFRIEND,MY LOVER (lol),MY STRENGHTH.I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU.I LOVE YOU!!

LONNIE-OMG,BOY YOU WERE THERE FROM THE BEGINING,THROUGH ALL THE TEARS,LAUGHS,AND PAIN.YOU GAVE ME ADVICE ALL THE TIME NOMATTER HOW MUCH I DIDNT LISTEN,YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE ON MY ASS MAKEING SURE I WAS OK.YOU WERE THE GREATEST FRIEND.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH<33

CHLOE-WOW WEVE HAD SOME CRAZY TIMES.ALL THE MODELING WE DID AT YOUR HOUSE,THE BEATINGS WITH THE WOODIN SPOONS,(lol)THE I LOVE HIM,I HATE HIM,NO CHLOE I LOVE HIM.(lol)YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT.WEVE KNOWN EACHOTHER SINCE 6 GRADE AND HOPEFULLY WE WILL STILL KNOW EACHOTHER FOREVERR!LOVE YOU GIRLFRIEND.

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 05:30:15 GMT

You came into my life,
And made me complete,
Each time I see you,
My heart skips a beat.
If I didn’t have you, what would I be?
True love is what you are to me.

Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun,
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness.
If I didn’t have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it’s true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love,
You’re a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn’t have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.

I know our love will always last,
I love you more with each day past,
Without you here I cannot be,
If I didn’t have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.

to my lover you,you know who you are.without you there is no me.you are my everything,my light for the day.u'll never find someone who loves you as much as i do.bbest friends for ever!!!!!love always
-nicole